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Two –

Is is just a number?

or more, I wonder.

Is is just one added to the other?

or more, I wonder.

On constant thinking

and re-thinking.

I found and realized,

it has hidden meaning behind.

And, now I am of the view,

out of two,

one is ‘Me’ & the other is ‘You’.

That makes us the “Perfect Two”.

Together Forever,

Multiplying Happiness,

Dividing Sorrows,

Celebrating Joys,

Facing Woes,

Being each other’s strengths.

And, over-coming weakness.

Two bodies but one soul,

accepting each other as a whole.

What else does one need?

Being together makes us complete.

So don’t you think ‘Me’ & ‘You’

are perfectly, the “Perfect Two”?

I am pretty sure,

that yes, we are.

 

In response to, OctPoWriMo 2014

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In love with the song, “Perfect Two”

“Strangers can become best friends just as easy best friends can become strangers.”

There was a time,
we didn’t know each other.
And, that was fine,
coz, then we were stranger.
 
There came a time,
when we met.
As, it was destined,
it was all set.
 
 
 
There was a time,
when we had a belief.
Strangers are future friends,
& being one, was a relief.
 
 
 
 
There was a time,
from strangers,
we turned to be partners-in-crime,
and witnessed all the adventure.
 
In a short while,
it was like,
The birds of same feather,
flock together.
 
To find one,
search the other.
Always having fun,
inseparably together.
 
Talking for long hours,
Posing for silly pictures, 
Individually Sensible,
Together Terrible.
 
Then came a time,
God knows, what went wrong.
The happy signs,
turned to be a sad song.
 
 
 
Those together all time,
were poles apart in no time.
The change was heart-breaking,
consequences threatening.
From Friends forever,
back to Strangers.
 
 
 
 
 
This post is a part of Write Over the Weekend, an initiative for Indian Bloggers by BlogAdda. 

In every relationship, its always two people, two souls reciprocating love, care, and concern sharing a common bond. But in this case, it was just one. Either ‘you’ or ‘me’, it was never ‘WE’.

‘You’ kept dominating, demanding and expecting.

‘Me’ kept following the orders, fulfilling demands and expectations.

 

‘You’ made himself available according to his needs. 

‘Me’ was available 24*7. She never checked her watch when he needed her.

 

‘You’ asked for help, ordered as if he had all the rights on her.

‘Me’ helped with no questions and objections.

 

‘You’ never prioritized ‘Me’. 

For ‘Me’, ‘You’ was the only priority. She could mould herself and adjust her schedule for him and she did so…but was taken for granted.

 

‘You’ asked to wait for a while.

‘Me’ did it for months.

 

‘You’ rejected the call, apologized and confirmed to call the day after (tomorrow).

‘Me’ accepted and apology and agreed to talk tomorrow..But Alas! tomorrow never came.

 

They had time issues…but still they talked for hours…the adjustment was obviously made by ‘Me”.

They had minor fights…but still they cared for each other…atleast ‘Me’ wasn’t fake, mean and selfish. ‘You’ himself praised her selflessness and even advised for not being selfless in dealings with everybody and anybody.

They knew they needed each other…but ‘You’ was seldom available..and by now you know about ‘Me’.

They were fond of each other..There were obvious reasons for ‘You’ but I never understood ‘Me’ s reasons.

They promised each other several things..the only difference was ‘Me’s promises were meant to be fulfilled and she did and ‘You’ never meant a word of what he said. Probably, he said things to please her which though wasn’t required.

 

‘You’ expected understanding whenever he was on the wrong footing but never bothered to understand ‘Me’ even on the platform where he misunderstood her.

‘Me’ was patient enough to have handled all that till a point came in her life where it became impossible to deal with ‘You’. That was the first time she denied to understand that he cannot be convinced and she exploded for the very first instance for him to listen, understand what she has to say and accept that he did wrong.

 

‘You’ committed several mistakes and it became his habit to repeat and apologize though he promised not to repeat.

‘Me’ once committed a mistake (in his eyes)..which in Me’s opinion was her anger, frustration, discontentment, fretfulness and ire towards him. And the same was tagged as her mistake by ‘You’, in order to save his own hands and cover up for his mistakes.

 

‘You’ was dependent on ‘Me’ and she never disappointed him.

‘Me’ couldn’t depend on him as he was not at all dependable. Though she knew this hard found fact about him but some where in her heart she did depend on him and he too knew the fact but never bothered..instead thought that its good, atleast this would compel her to stick to him & she would never leave..but he forgot everything has its limits and when something is filled in beyond the limits, it is destined to overflow..And so did ‘Me’…Deep down, in her heart, she broke..She cried hard inside but still managed to move on with a Smile…Gradually, she felt the need to make him realize her value, her worth and that he needed her more than she needed him.

 

In the name of friendship, It was only ‘Me’ who made adjustments, compromises and settlements. It was ‘Me’ who felt like being used, taken for granted and treated like a foot mat by the one for whom she once thought she was a good friend.

And, it was ‘You’ who made false promises, excuses and told lies..It was him who always expected without being able to come up to the smallest expectation of ‘Me’.

 

This time ‘Me’ was saturated to the core, tired of trying to understand, fed up hanging on to the one who does not value her presence and is so indifferent towards her, unwilling to put in one-sided efforts any more. She gave up on him.  And, eventually they stopped talking.Though presently ‘Me’ is broken, troubled, shattered and disturbed. But, it will soon be past and forgotten. Once she is able to recover and move on, she will never commit a mistake judging people and this time she will surely find someone for whom she is prior, for whom both her presence and absence matter… 🙂

In the coming days, when ‘You’ will realize what he has lost while nurturing his Ego and Attitude, then he will then step in the shoes of ‘Me’ and this will be forever. That day he will be left with nothing but regrets and repent for being so insensitive, ignorant, unkind, mean and selfish, for not having valued what he was lucky enough to have, for having chosen bad luck, sorrow, pain and grief for himself, and last but not the least for having lost “Me”… 😦

And that day, ‘Me’ too will be helpless and unable to help him overcome that situation and she’ll still feel bad for him. She’ll still pray for him to be blessed but she would no longer be his lucky charm. She’ll still be concerned but not connected. She’ll still wish him all the happiness and peace in the world but she’ll no longer be the reason. She’ll still be the same yet different. She’ll still be standing for him but not by his side. She’ll still be there but not Together. And that day he’ll realize ‘Me’ had gone long ago, he lost his irreplaceable ‘Me’ long ago…and this time irrevocably, irreversibly, indelibly for infinity. ‘You’ lost ‘Me’ for ever… 😦

 

 

I believed, He lied

I asked, He denied.

I trusted, He faked.

I admitted, He neglected.

But when we talked.

Conversations were never too bad,

Some of them were the best we could have had.

He always convinced,

He always pursued,

that even he was affected.

It’s just that he keeps too busy,

And for him too this wasn’t so easy.

and I was carried by his explanations,

made up my mind to understand his situations.

Things went back to normal,

we broke the barriers that were formal.

But then he always repeated things he once said sorry for,

And that’s what made me unsure and insecure.

Same situations prevailed,

circumstances never changed.

He talked when there was any need,

when there was any help that he sought.

To this, I did not really pay any heed.

Till to my mind came up a thought.

Was there really any connection as he said?

Was there really any attachment as he claimed?

If yes, then why did he not show up

at those times when ‘his selfness’ wasn’t involved?

If yes, then why did he not show up

at times when I ‘needed him’ and was shattered?

I was in the need of an assurance,

wipe out the doubts and gain confidence.

Asking him would mean he would win over me.

Through his sweet coated words he would convince.

And then I wished “I could read his mind”

I wanted to know what was going inside?

whether he felt the same or only I was affined?

Only I was chained or he too was confined?

And be sure that I am not wrong in trusting him blind.

It isn’t like that I doubt him..!!

But want to test my Faith on him..!!

Want to know what he thinks of me..??

Or does he not even bother about me..??

Want to know how often do I cross his mind..??

Is the count larger than mine..??

If it is, its good and if it’s not, even that is not bad,

I took the lead, I’ll be glad.

Even if, not as much as he crosses mine,

Atleast I do cross his mind.

That will give me an assurance enough.

Then I won’t let things go so rough.

Those things between us will then go on smoother,

As is said ” When the tough gets going, the going gets better”.

For once only, if  ‘I could read his mind’..!!

And if he lets my faith on him ‘Win’…

I promise, I would for the rest of my life, ‘Trust him blind’.

P.S. –

This post is a part of Write Over the Weekend, an initiative for Indian Bloggers by BlogAdda.

When I caring, I was good.

When I let you share, I was good.

When I understood you, I was good.

When I helped you, I was good.

When I was concerned, I was good.

When I was supportive, I was good.

When I was sensible, I was good.

When I was friendly, I was good.

For that matter,

Even when I was irritating, I was good.

Even when I was foolish, I was good.

Even when I was annoying, I was good.

Even when I was sarcastic, I was good.

Even when I was impetuous, I was good.

Even when I was negligent, I was good.

Now what happened..??

Have I changed or you..??

All good in Me..!!

Is now as bad as it could be..!!

 

 

 

 

 

 

                   

                                                                       

There was a time when my Mornings were fine,

Evenings were bright and Nights did shine.

Someone kept inquiring about my wine and dine,

Someone was so concerned whether or not I am fine..??

From frequent chit chats to long talking hours,

where splendid things we discussed,

& small disagreements & arguments  we had.

Ample of background music , 

but it could never distract.

Be it the horns of the cars,

or the policeman at the traffic signals.

Be it the enormous call waiting’s,

or some nearby friend’s yelling.

Be it  some kid’s laughter or cry,

or some friends naughty winks or wry.

Everything was so much in flow…

Nothing…Never so Dry.

Equations have changed, things seem clumsy,

Everything has turned upside down, tupsy turvy.

No Chit Chat…No more sound…!!!

Silence is what is all around…!!!

Barring your words that echo and haunt my mind,

Barring your memories that play with continuous rewind.

No more horns or signals,

No more callings or yelling’s,

No more winks or cries,

No more Hello or Hie’s…!!

All  I heard was the Unsaid ‘GoodBye’.

Nobody to take care of and to take care.

Nobody who could let me share.

Nobody who pours out his sorrows on my ears.

Nobody to listen to what I am saying.

Nobody to seek my well being.

Nobody to fight with or fight for.

Am I thinking too deep & being overly mature..??

or is it normal because this is how I find my cure..??

Unspoken Words…Unsaid things…Unexpressed Feelings.

But, some understood Emotions…!!!

This is how Silence works.

It really speaks louder than words.

Just understand what Silence has to spread, 

For that “Silence has be Heard”

 

 

 

We talk, We share,

We love, We care.

When we need each other,

we are always there. (more…)