Posts Tagged ‘mind’

You write because you have an idea in your mind that feels so genuine, so important, so true. And yet, by the time this idea passes through the different filters of your mind, and into your hand, and onto the page or computer screen — it becomes distorted, and it’s been diminished. The writing you end up with is an approximation, if you’re lucky, of whatever it was you really wanted to say.

– Author Khaled Hosseini, “How to Write,” the Atlantic


“Being Able to write is a Blessing”

The above lines in itself truly describe the scenario every writer faces, atleast the amateur writers like me do. (Though as of now, I don’t consider myself a writer. I’m just a beginner. There is a long way to go. I’ve used it in the context that anyone who writes is a writer, 😉 ) To add to this, there is a major issue cropping up these days, that I am giving a mention below.

These days, since I have been regular at writing almost anything and everything that comes up to my mind, my thoughts have started startling me. They strike my mind with the speed of light (I don’t think I am exaggerating), one after the other, even before I could make a note of the first one the next seems to come in and the chain continues. It makes it difficult for me to able to concentrate on what I was supposed to write. So, I found a way out. I have started making notes of the subsequent thoughts that strike me and help my focus on the first one. Once I complete that write – up, I re-visit the notes list, choose one out of that and get back to writing. This has no doubt helped me, but this wanderer mind of mine still creates troubles but I am trying to keep an edge over it. I hope, I succeed. And, honestly, when I write something with a focused and free mind, I find my writings better than what I write when I am over-filled with thoughts. I won’t say that those write-up’s come up to be excellent but they are something I pour my heart in, so I feel more connected, more satisfied and happier.

Also, these over-speedy thoughts and my focus to be able to write them somewhere before they disappear or vanish, at times cuts me from the physical world. It happens a lot these days that I am with my family or friends talking and chatting with them, spending time with them and suddenly I am lost…Lost in my own world. It is difficult to believe that my mom pulls my leg by saying that she has lost her importance to my writings..Gosh..! I really couldn’t believe my ears really heard that, I pinched myself and thought over what mom said and I found that true to an extent. The time slot in my schedule that exclusively belonged to my Mum previously now is spent either with my diary or laptop. I decided to effectively manage time and not to disappoint Mumma. Also, the time devoted to chats and messages previously now goes in making notes of the recurrent thoughts in my mind i.e. the use of my cell phone too has changed a great deal. I have started getting complaints from my folks. I am hopeful to be able to deal with this and I am sure I will be able to do it.

To conclude, I would like to put it up as  – There are two things I need to be doing – Firstly, manage my thoughts (My Dream World, The Illusionary World that seems real only to me) and secondly, manage my relationships (The Physical World, The Real Real World). I can’t even imagine living in the absence of any of these. Though both are mutually exclusive but both are essential for my survival. I exist because they do. I am because they are.

P.S. This is written as a part of the Day1 activity of “Writing 101” initiative by WordPress.

I believed, He lied

I asked, He denied.

I trusted, He faked.

I admitted, He neglected.

But when we talked.

Conversations were never too bad,

Some of them were the best we could have had.

He always convinced,

He always pursued,

that even he was affected.

It’s just that he keeps too busy,

And for him too this wasn’t so easy.

and I was carried by his explanations,

made up my mind to understand his situations.

Things went back to normal,

we broke the barriers that were formal.

But then he always repeated things he once said sorry for,

And that’s what made me unsure and insecure.

Same situations prevailed,

circumstances never changed.

He talked when there was any need,

when there was any help that he sought.

To this, I did not really pay any heed.

Till to my mind came up a thought.

Was there really any connection as he said?

Was there really any attachment as he claimed?

If yes, then why did he not show up

at those times when ‘his selfness’ wasn’t involved?

If yes, then why did he not show up

at times when I ‘needed him’ and was shattered?

I was in the need of an assurance,

wipe out the doubts and gain confidence.

Asking him would mean he would win over me.

Through his sweet coated words he would convince.

And then I wished “I could read his mind”

I wanted to know what was going inside?

whether he felt the same or only I was affined?

Only I was chained or he too was confined?

And be sure that I am not wrong in trusting him blind.

It isn’t like that I doubt him..!!

But want to test my Faith on him..!!

Want to know what he thinks of me..??

Or does he not even bother about me..??

Want to know how often do I cross his mind..??

Is the count larger than mine..??

If it is, its good and if it’s not, even that is not bad,

I took the lead, I’ll be glad.

Even if, not as much as he crosses mine,

Atleast I do cross his mind.

That will give me an assurance enough.

Then I won’t let things go so rough.

Those things between us will then go on smoother,

As is said ” When the tough gets going, the going gets better”.

For once only, if  ‘I could read his mind’..!!

And if he lets my faith on him ‘Win’…

I promise, I would for the rest of my life, ‘Trust him blind’.

P.S. –

This post is a part of Write Over the Weekend, an initiative for Indian Bloggers by BlogAdda.

Heart vs Mind

Posted: January 30, 2013 in Love...???, Poetry.. :)
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“OBFUSCATION – Heart vs Mind”

                                       


Confusion between my mind and heart,
The battle long ago which start.
Whom to listen is the delimma I face..?
Both want to win this stupid race..
Whosoever wins…I will loose…
Loose to none but my own views..
Mind favours what is right..
All that my heart takes light…
When my mind says something’s wrong,
My heart pushes me Go ON…!!

Finally I chose a path….
Din’t know but it did break my heart.
Everything same but nothing left,
Many differences came up and crept.
Is it..the time that flew away…???
Or something else that came our way..??

Again confused between mind and heart..
Why God gave two..when only one could act..?? 


Finally mind overtook my heart,
It hurts, because the feelings never depart.
It kills me hard inside..
when i think about what I had to decide.
Nothing can I do now..no go back from here,
All I can do is to shed all my tear.
This is the only way my pain can flow.
Without you my life becomes hollow.
Was happy when we were together,
No worries…nothing to bother…
Loved the way we used to talk..chitter chatter,
Your arms were the coziest place that gave me shelter.
When all I had lost..needed it the most..
Don’t have those arms, patient ear, and lovely care,
Left alone…no feel…none to share…


                                              
But yes, one good thing it taught,
Resolved the battle that daily I’d faught.
I found an answer to my own question,
Not to the heart..but to mind we should listen.
I don’t say that it’s always right…
but surely helps in difficult times.
Mind’s practical…so it adjusts..
Difficult to rebuilt when the heart fails.
Be sure about your heart..don’t let all hack,
Coz when they leave it suffers a lasting crack.
So, its better to let your heart be a fool…
And for better…Let your Mind Rule…!!!
Or say, if you follow your Heart…
Bring your Mind behind that…!!!
So that they work together in sync,
And never allow this battle to come into being..!!!